I was told that I should not give up on my dreams... I am not too sure about that... A lot of people know that I love stand up comedy and being a comedian. But as life goes on things change and your attention gets pulled away from things. I have noticed as I have gotten older that I feel a disconnect from what is relevant in the world. Maybe its just me wanting to live for me and no one or nothing else... but I still feel out of touch. The new comics as I call them are more focused (like I was when I got started) and hungry. Maybe its because I have become complacent with where I am at in life and need a recharge. I know that in my 40 years now I have yet to have a real vacation, a stable relationship, or actual happiness (even though being happy is just a state of mind), needless to say I haven't found it. It was a short time where I was only happy on stage. Now that has left me too. God knows how much I enjoy doing what I do... He is the one that gave me this gift. But it reminds me of the story of the talents... not going to get all into it right now... but it makes me wonder what would you do if GOD took your talent from you...? Is this what I could be experiencing? If it is what do you do to get that gift back? Or is it gone for good when God takes it from you?

Looking from the oustide in... are you seeing the truth?

I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN WHAT I HAVE BEEN ACTING. LONG SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND EVEN LONELY DAYS. DESMOND YOU NEED TO WAKE UP.

As I get older the more I notice things... I was walking around my house yesterday and noticed that these high school girls dress like strippers in training!

Niki Minaj look like she got raped by a box of Crayola Crayons!"Laugh with me"

Ugh... doh well whats a man to do? Enjoy the rest of this long weekend and rest as much as possible

Today, I feel as if things are starting to crash around me. Like my patience is wearing thin and the walls are closing in. I need a chance to really breathe before I snap on the wrong person or thing. A failed marriage, comedy career, almost feeling like life is to harsh at times so what else is there to do?